Idgaf!

Have you ever feel so annoyed?

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Because really, I don't regret. If I have a habit of regretting, I might regret many fuckin' things, but I don't. Instead of feeling regret, you better feel that you've learnt from that thing. Because everything happens for a reason, to make you a better person, to get you anywhere you want in this life. If you keep trying to walk away from your past, you're gonna have a bad time, trust me. Because when you try even more, you feel even more, you remember even more. So, just don't give a shit about the things that can't make you any better person. Don't give a shit of someone who doesn't care about you, I mean, you should always be good and polite to people, but no, don't give a shit about people who comes when he/she needs you. Because, you deserves happiness, you deserve friends who can give you positive things to make you a better person.

Have you ever feel so annoyed of someone or something that you can even feel every day you meet them will always gonna be awkward? Have you ever feel so annoyed when your guy friend's gf mad at you with no reason? Hear me, Don't ever give any shit babes!

Because everything in your life are matters to you. They will make you a better person, nature will always give you positive things. But it's your choice, what will you take from nature. I can say that I'm talking about karma, it doesn't work blahblah, but hell yes! Look, if you break the nature by stupid little things, they'll give you back. They will give you back an uncomfortable circumstances in your life. If you plant a seed, you'll get a plant right? But sometimes it won't grow, why? It's because maybe you haven't got a lot experience, because nothing's instant. Except our sophisticated technologies these lately.

Remember you're the one who choose whether you want to be happy or not. So, let your smile brighten up the whole world :)

Ps. this is a part of my life's story, sorry if it's random, but really, thank you for reading :D

Look at me by Carrie Underwood

This song is hit! The lyrics are so real, you gotta listen to it. This song came out in 2009, yes, it's 5 years ago and I just listen to it in 9gag.tv and I almost cry because this video of a bride sang her groom when she was down at the aisle here's the video. Well, there's no official video of this from Carrie Underwood, but if you want to know the original song, here it is :)

This is the lyrics, enjoy ;D

I would bet my life, like I bet my hear
That you were the one, baby
I've never been so sure of anything before
It's driving my heart crazy

I can't hold out, I can't hold back now
Like I've done before

Darling, look at me
I've fallen like a fool for you
Darling, can't you see
I'd do anything you want me to
I tell myself I'm in too deep
Then I fall a little farther
Every time you look at me

How do you do that, babe?
Make me feel like I'm the only girl alive for you
I don't know what it is that makes me fall like this
First time in your arms, I knew

The way you held me, I knew that this could be
What I've been waiting to find

Darling, look at me
I've fallen like a fool for you
Darling, can't you see
I'd do anything you want me to

I tell myself I'm getting in too deep
Then I fall a little farther
Every time you look at me

Every time you look at me

The Ambiguous

The music has started. All lights on. I say to myself again for the third time “Do I have to go?” and all people who’ve been asked like that be “You wanna lose your money?” or “It’s once in a year and you’ve never seen it before, you should try.”

All that I can say to myself is, “I mean, there’ll be a lot of screams, speakers, people, make-ups, dresses and everything that I’ve never faced before.” And I think hard again, “then it’s gonna be your first time!” You know, we’ll always think whatever it is, “no, absolutely not.”

But then you had to fight yourself “but really, I’m not going?” and you’d be like “okay, I’m going.” After you decided something, the other things came up and “make-ups, no. Hair, nope.” And you know you just gotta be yourself,  “okay let’s go.”

When you arrived at something you fight your mind before, “well, it’s not that bad.” But you know, your first thought is your major decision like, all the time, “no, Im leaving.”

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Everything by Chester See

If you ask me who's Chester See, then you aren't a youtuber :) He's a musician, singer and comedian, sooner or later you'll probably love him <3

Everything - Chester See

This is a sweet moving on song, fyi. This song is really deep for me. It's like in this song I can always say "tbh" hahaha, so here's the lyrics, enjoy :)

She loved and left me
Still she kept me
Wanting more, but feeling empty
Did she have to go
Will I ever know

Love and leave me
She deceived me
The way she kissed
Was so misleading
I thought that she might stay

Then she went away

Before I close the chapter to your name
There's a couple of things I never got to say

Your eyes are wonderful
Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true,
There's beauty in your touch

And your kiss is love
You're everything that every guy dreams of
You're everything that makes me fall in love

It's been some time
But still I find
I'm struggling with our last goodbye

I thought this love would last
Now I'm living in the past

Cause it's just me
And memories of how my heart
Would skip a beat
Whenever you were near
Now you're never here

Before I find the strength to let this go
There's a couple of things I need for you to know

Your eyes are wonderful

Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true
There's beauty in your touch
And your kiss is love
You're everything that every guy dreams of
You're everything that makes me fall in love

Your eyes are wonderful
Your smile is too
Your laugh's contagious
And your heart is true
Yeah, there's beauty in your touch
And your kiss is love

You're everything
Yes, your'e everything
You're everything, you're everything
That makes me fall in love
Yeah, in love

Flashbacks

I do still remember it, how much your heights at the moment when you told me that you like me.

I do still remember it, your face when you want to say that you love me but you just can’t and you wrote me a letter.

I do still remember it, when you tried to learn music.

I do still remember it, the tastes of your music.

I do still remember it, the way you talk.

I do still remember it, the way you walk.

I do still remember it, what you always do when you’re angry.

I do still remember it, the way you don’t want to hurt a little girl’s heart.

I do still remember it, how your appearences changed.

I do still remember it, the first time I looked into your eyes and I was counting 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, blank.

I do still remember it, how we fixed things up.

I do still remember it, when you know I was jealous.

I do still remember it, what you hate from me.

I do still remember it, when we made stories together.

I do still remember it, when we worked things together.

I do still remember it, when we see our future together.

I do still remember it, how you lied about fantasies to me.

I do still remember it, when you teased me so deep.

I do still remember it, the way you look at me and then you looked away.

I do still remember it, how you sing to me.

I do still remember it, everything.

But no, I don’t want to go back. I just miss you, that’s all. ‘Cause everytime we go back, mistakes always happen. I don’t want any of us hurt. I want you to be happy with the one who can make you happy without pressing you. I want to be happy living this life without regrets. The past is in the past. ‘Cause if it’s meant to be, it will be. Don’t be wrong, I’m not hoping anything. There's just come a time that I miss you, that’s all. And really I love my life, so much better now.

Look

Look.
Can't you see it?
How much she loves you,
How much she misses you

Look.
Do you still know her?
She might still wants you,
She might still needs you

Look.
Can you still remember her?
With all of her heart,
And with all of her soul

Don't you see her?
Don't you realize it?
Her smile,
What have you done?

What do you see?
What do you feel?
What do you want?
What have you done?

Don't you notice her?
Her moves,
Her smile,
The look of the window of her heart?

Don't you notice her?
She talks to you,
She keeps trying to find you,
She's always see you

Did you ever love her?
Weren't it all real?
And for the last time,
Do you still look at her?

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Lihat

Lihat.
Apakah kau melihatnya?
Betapa Ia mencintaimu,
Betapa Ia merindukanmu

Lihat.
Apakah kau masih mengenalnya?
Ia masih menginginkanmu
Ia masih membutuhkanmu

Lihat.
Apakah kau masih mengingatnya?
Dengan segenap hatinya,
Dan dengan segenap jiwanya

Tidakkah kau melihatnya?
Tidakkah kau menyadarinya?
Senyumnya,
Apa yang telah kau perbuat?

Apa yang kau lihat?
Apa yang kau rasakan?
Apa yang kau inginkan?
Apa yang telah kau perbuat?

Tidakkah kau mengenalnya?
Gerakannya,
Senyumnya,
Jendela hatinya?

Tidakkah kau melihatnya?
Ia berbicara padamu,
Ia terus mencarimu,
Ia selalu melihatmu

Bukankah kau pernah mencintainya?
Apakah itu semua tidak nyata?
Dan untk yang terakhir kalinya adalah,
Apakah kau masih melihatnya?

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Chester See's cover of Say Something

This song is really great. I mean, they have good music and lyrics. This version of "Say Something" is made by Chester See, he's really a good singer...and comedian in YouTube :D

The lyrics are so deep so, check it out, here if you want to hear the original one by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting at all

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you oh

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something..

Thanks for reading :D

Back at One - Brian McKnight

Have you ever heard this song? I knew it from my friend, the way she sang this song was so cute. So, I'm checking on this deep song and I love it :)

It's undeniable, that we should be together
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time, time will reveal, yeah

[chorus]
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one two three
Five, make you fall in love with e
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I start back at one, yeah

So incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe
And undesirable, for us to be apart
Never would of made it very far
'Cause you know that you've got the keys to my heart,
'Cause..

[back to chorus]

Say farewell to the dark of night, I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line, just in the Nick of Time

[back to chorus]

How's it? Instead of great lyrics, this song has a great music too, so check it out :)

Brainstorm #1

So I'm planning on write down my brainstorms here, in my blog. I'm going to make a new story but I still don't know what to write. I have many ideas but I don't know which one the brightest.

Here's the list:

- Cheesy-eezy lovey dovey story, maybe not that cheesy but still :p 3 or 4 months ago, I was going to write a new love story but I'm stuck and I had a lot of tasks to do, soo yeah, I didn't continue it. I don't know if I'm gonna make it again or not, but I have these ideas because all of my 'what if' things. I think that I can write my mind on it, with a little changes. But still, I'm thinking that this is too ordinary for me.

-Fantasiess superb-fiction. Well, I can put all my imaginations here and taraa, but nope, not that simple. It's a bit hard for me because, if I make it, my ideas will come from the Harry Potters, Percy Jacksons, Narnias and all fantasy movies and books I've ever watched and read. And it will so mixed up, I don't want to make that kind of cheesy fantasy story. But, I've made this once, I didn't make it alone also I don't want to talk about that story no more (it's lovey-dovey thing, you know, it was with someone).

-So fuckin' cool storeyy. I mean, it can be girls in action things, spies things, sophisticated things and also Holmes' things (but really, I love Sir Conan A. Doyle's so much). But, I don't know where should I find the ideas for making that kind of stories. I've read many, but I don't know why, it's just hard. Yea, I don't know, I haven't tried to make that kind of stories.

To be continued :p

February 7th, 2014

They say, writing can heal you for everything, because it's like you move your mind into somewhere else but, you don't have to hear other opinion like when you're talking with your friends. So here I am, writing.

It's this feeling that you're feeling like you shouldn't love someone. Because when you fall in love with them, you'll just screw things up. You don't even know, when he says some things about love, you don't know whether it's for you of not, because he lives in other environment that you don't know. And also, when he talks about his crushes. Even if you've other crushes and you tell him too, you can't deny your feelings for him. You know it that you have that one person that you will always love.

Do you know a song called 'Crazy'? Sings by Andrew Garcia.

The way I feel for you is unlike any other thing I've ever felt before. But they don't understand that I'm not crazy, I'm just a man, searching for reasons to find you, over and over again. I'm doing everything that I can.

Crazy 'cause I'm telling the truth, there's nowhere to run. They're telling me that I should find another one, they can say I'm outta my mind.

It's probably a good song :D 

Okay, back to the topic. Do you know that if you stop chasing the wrong things, the good things will probably have chances to catch you :) 

Okay, the next post will be longer, I'm telling a story hahahaha.

Um yeah, if you've anything to say to me, just email or give comments below, I would like to hear it. Thanks :D

Almost is Never Enough - Ariana Grande ft. Nathan Sykes

I'd like to say we gave it a try

I'd like to blame it all on life

Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie

And we can deny it as much as we want

But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later

We'll wonder why we gave up

The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough

So close to being in love

If I would have known that you wanted me

The way I wanted you

Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart

But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was

But almost is never enough

If I could change the world overnight

There'd be no such thing as goodbye

You'd be standing right where you were

And we'd get the chance we deserve

Try to deny it as much as you want

But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later

We'll wonder why we gave up

The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough 

We were so close to being in love 

If I would have known that you wanted me, the way I wanted you

Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart

But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was

But almost is never enough

Oh, oh baby, you know, you know, baby

Almost, baby, is never enough, baby

You know

And we can deny it as much as we want

But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later

We'll wonder why we gave up

The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough (is never enough, babe)

We were so close to being in love (so close)

If I would have known that you wanted me the way I wanted you (babe)

Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart

But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was (baby)

But almost is never enough

Oh, oh baby, you know, you know, baby

Almost is never enough baby

You know

I'm so into this song lately<3

February 2nd, 2014

So, I'm looking for books. When I was in bookstore yesterday, I'm feeling like I have to buy it all.

Well, at least I bought The Demigod Diaries. Which now I know there are a lot of series before that book. But this book contains of Luke's diary long before his betrayal, it's when he met Thalia and Annabeth. Also jumped to Percy's diary which contain of his adventure after he saved the Olympia (Titan's curse).

It's worth it by the way =D so I'm planning on read the other books.

Recomended books for reader :p
Rick Riordan's
JK Rowling's
Nicholas Sparks'
and Raditya Dika's (Indonesian)

And I just wanna share, Midnight Memories is in Youtube now, don't forget to watch it :p

February 1st, 2014

I don't know what's anxiety means, but am I? I'm feeling so (I don't know how to describe my feelings) just because my mouse pad doesn't work-well.

Um, Happy Birthday dear Harry Styles :)

By the way, this one topic came out from my mind when I worked at my art homework.
The Sun.
The Sun is so beautiful when they came up, but it will hurt us when it comes to high in afternoon. After that, the Sun's gone in beautiful way again, and moon came up from far, lights its grey-blue. Why is the Sun can't be beautiful to see all the time, even if it's so useful.

I've said, I blog random things and it'll get more random.
Ever since I saw my old things and stories, I don't even want to repeat it.